Love

Love..it makes you so stupid sometimes. Blind to things that are right in front of your face. Maybe not even blind, it just conceals them, as if they don’t matter.

Dimples wants me back. After he broke up with me over text message on the 26th.

I want him back. I want to be with him. But I am so scared to take him back. If it’s the same as it was before, then it’s a worthless relationship. Always being ditched, never getting to see him, losing my trust in him..it wouldn’t be worth it.

But, what if it could be different. What if he doesn’t ditch me anymore. What if he does stop by to at least see me often. What if we can be how we were when we started out? We were simply perfect in the beginning. Still had our arguments of course, but we were happy.

Can it go back to that? Is that who he really is? Can he really go from a 13 year marriage with 3 kids to a serious relationship with me? Is he REALLY not with her? Is it too much for me to ask that he at least get divorce papers worked out with her, first?

My heart desperately wants for me to let him back in. But all of my guards are up. And my trust is low. Could we really make it?